I Lost A Friend of Mine……………

Someone I had known for years
With whom I had laughed with my tears
It was no one else but you my friend,
Someone whom I couldn’t think of giving even a rend
I remember the way we used to chat for long
Midst running classes singing those songs
Doing everything together,
From learning to failing,
Making this bond each day stronger.
Standing in that staircase
Remember how we used to have our hays.
Oh! Remember our first bunk?
Like silly teens our try to be a punk?
Roaming on those roads reaching nowhere
The way for each other we used to care
Drinking cho-cho every winter morning
Those boring lectures and our yawning
Everything just vanished like dew
In amidst of people I lost you
People came just closer
You forgot the old rose
For flowers, new
Making this bond weaker and colder
Distance between us kept on increasing
And the warmth in our friendship kept on decreasing
Don’t know how it happened
But without you life just darkened
We are still friends to world we show
But in deep our hearts
This, we both know,
That the magic resides no more.
There were times,
When we had no reason to keep shut
And today even if we talk
All we are is just curt
It’s my mistake I guess
If I hadn’t let you go
Neither of us would have suffered this mess
I should have asked you to slow
I miss your silly questions,
Miss giving you those philosophical lessons,
I miss wiping your tears,
Miss having you near,
Miss the way I used to yell
When while driving you used to open your hair
I miss having you besides me when I am high
And I miss those beautiful years, five
I never thought these years would pass so fast
But neither did I know,
One day for your friendship this way I would starve
Standing beneath that tree like kids we chattered
None of us knew one day your bond in this way would scatter
I know those years can never come again
That spark between us I know
We can never regain.
All I want to say is
Life with you was delight
Full of colors and light
Whenever you wish to glance back dear
Just remember I’ll be there to hug you tight
Still am waiting for you
And maybe complaining too
That in a girl who today on world shines
I lost a friend of mine………
___bineka

A walk in moonlight…………..

It’s so cold tonight
But I feel your warmth
When besides me you walk
Oh! It feels just so right
I see from the corner of my eye
To me the way you sigh
The words tonight have lost
Except our souls everything has frost
Your trembling lips
Try to tell me something
Something I’d been dying to hear
I love the way you pull me down
The way you shelter me in your arms
My skin from your touch simply sears
The way your eyes sway down my neck
I know you simply wanna peck
Lying on your shoulder
In this never-ending boulevard I walk
There’s nobody between us,
No whispers and no talks
Your hands curving my waist
The heartbeats running with haste
I wish with you
Under this moonlight
Forever I could stroll
Inside your heart I wish I could shroud
Making the whole world trawl
With you I could forever lose this crowd.
Just the way this light makes sky look nice
Your eyes make me feel so alive
The rain drops on your face
Make you look just so more mine
With you in my life, I can end up right now
Without seeing my next sunshine
Having your warmth besides me, this way,
Under this silver moon with numbness forever I can stay
____bineka

THE CRYING NIGHT........................

In this crying night
My tears roll down
Making my face so more fron
My wet lashes leave a drop
With my shivering fingers which I try to lop
They are my,lonely red eyes
Behind the kohl which I try to hide
I am lost in the dark so deep
The blues today make me weep
They wlk on my crushed feelings
My veins just can’t stop reeling
I stood by the people when they needed
And they didn’t even glanced back
When for help I pleaded
The tears so unstoppable
Make me feel just unspeakable
My voice toils for a wheeze
When in this frosty night alone I freeze
Nobody hears my silent cry
And even if they do
They wont come to make it dry
With this pain today my heart just aches
My mind being numbs starts to quake
Few lovable words and
A shoulder to cry on
That’s what it wants
‘coz in my heart today lonliness haunts
The beam of moon swiftly crept in
A sudden silence sounded my helpless din
Souls of the sadness one day will be dead
Yeah!that’s what it said
Making me assure that one fine day
The leaves of the sorrows surely will shed
As I separated my lashes
I saw the way darkness quashes
The brightness of the sun showered
All the sadness at once shattered
My tears slept with the night
Now to this morning I’ll try to hold tight
The moonlight ,disappeared teaching me that
There’s a lovely sunshine after
Each crying night
___bineka

THE UNKNOWN PART OF ME...............

Don’t know what’s wrong
Life simply seems too long
Everyone around Is happy
But still a croner of my heart is empty
There’s a drift in my core
It’s something about which I am unsure
Like a thud of a stone in a stagnant lake
Deeper I quake
The lava in me is going dim
As the music dies so does my vim
There’s something about which I don’t know
Maybe to the outter world I don’t want show
Th lonely me inside is sitting
For something I don’t know
Today I am weeping
raindrops won’t leser my tears
The silence in me,this crowd will never hear
To the world outside I am,
The happiest person today
‘coz nobody has the time to see the unseen
I fel incomplete from hub
It simply feels very rum
Maybe a part of wants to get complete
A girl inside me wants to be understood,
All the bursting uncertainties needes to be soothe
A sad me wants to get faint,
All the colorless color want some paint
A broken me wants to get paired
A lady in me today wants to be cared
__bineka

UNDER THE MASK.......

How mysterious our society is
Behind someone we snitch
The next moment in air we kiss
We pretend to love all around us
To our inner thoughts we have forced to be hush
The more we say we are together
The deeper we shatter
Friends whom we call,
For them our face seems to be pall
It’s somewhere we aren’t allowed to speak our mind
Silence tags us being rimed
All we supposed to do
Is just folow the shadow in dark
In front of people sweetly bark
Hating someone to the core
And pretending each day to love him more
Hurting people with those sweet frosty words
Which cut them open as does the swords
Getting lost in the crowd which itself
Is just decorated with worthless pelf
Does being good means being coldly sweet?
Ignoring people when with themselves they meet?
Hitting pals on their back?
And to their truthful trust
Is it so easy to hack?
With this not many will agree,
But deep down our souls we all know
That under the mask me need to see.
__bineka

It’s Hard to Hurt…………….

Something happened for the very first time
I felt numb standing
On the other side of crime
Who says it’s easy to break a heart?
Hurting someone is no painless
Because emotions are not for mart
I soothe my self by saying
I didn’t mean to hurt
But still my words deep in me, cut
I could have said it earlier or maybe later
I took out the fish when it was best in her water
Why can’t I cry aloud?
For making someone cry
I have this only doubt
I wish I could change this moment
I wish to myself
I wouldn’t have given chance to lament
I don’t know why I did this or may I knew
To a heart today it wasn’t easy to hew
At least we can cry on being sore
But when you are the reason
For this, it pains really more
They say it’s not worth crying over spoilt milk
But I guess that’s the only option left
When to a friend of ours you bilk
Killing a smile is no less than dying
So never smile on someone’s tear
Because also someday that someone’s smile
Can be the reason for your crying
_____bineka

Sun sets a thought……………..

Sunset is just ready to rise,
Am thinking about the number that life has played on its dice,
Well whatever the result will be
If lock for one then for another it’ll be a key
Laying down I am thinking about my past
The memories which forever will last
The way life over-took me,
The way my heart stretched out like a sea
It was all for good may be I didn’t knew then
Maybe that was the reason for me this world was once a fen
Well I am not defending this world, but today neither am I complaining
Complaining about the way life treated me
Because that’s the way it had to be
And that’s the way it’ll be
Changes are always good that’s what it taught
Surprises with itself is something she always brought
Everything depends on him, except one thing that’s for sure
Whether you see the tears it brings
Or wonder how it makes your eyes more pure
The birds are about to shelter their fluff
Well I am trying to count my uncountable bluffs
But still with no regrets I today am in love with it
Taking over those joyful sorrows with a smile I sit
The concept is lucid
If destiny cuts the power
It is to show us how beautifully a candle can lit
Well all birds are gone
And so is the sun
What am I waiting for then
It’s time to go
Because I plan to see the next fresh dawn

Treat me as a human because I am one.

How easy it is to pretend,
How easy to stand
Holding back millions of tears,
How easy a smile is to wear
Caging of emotions seems to be pretty simple
But hard it is to fake a dimple,
I just want to ask this question simple
People can’t see my tears or they deliberately don’t want to?
They can’t hear my cries or they knowingly don’t want to?
I agree for me every bond is extreme,
For me the roads I know will not ALWAYS be cream
I agree I talk above my age,
Millions of me I know have been rotten in this stage
I agree I am easy to hurt
At times I know I am pretty much curt
I agree I am very much dreamy
I agree to everything you say. Thee,
My laughter cries “for lord sake please let me be free”
These smiles could have been very much true now
Only if in front of other emotions I wouldn’t have bowed
Why do people forget that at the end of the day
Even I am a god damn it human
Even I have my wishes and feelings to say
Till what time will I hurt myself for people around me
Till what time I will bear this insanity
Even I want to cry aloud,
Even I want someone to make my anger sound
Even I want someone to hear me when I say
Even I want to think about someone when alone I lay
I don’t think I am demanding a lot.
I am just asking you not to make my life a Mort
I know even happiness in this world is allotted
But fortunately or unfortunately even I am a human
And I will owe you for the rest of my life if you treat me like one
_____bineka

Ťĭŗĕ∂ όƒ....................

I m tired of waiting,
tired of crying
I wanna get lost in d light of darkning nite,
wanna get vanished frm mah own sight,
wanna brk d silence of dis noisy crowd,
lyf'z a puzzle n i wanna get out.
I kno it's doesn't affects 2 world
people will say "d gurl who died was an ABSURD"
dey who'll turn me in2 ashes will b merciless,
mah epithaph will say"she died of LONLINESS"
der will b hidden smiles n fake cries,
coz dey were waiting when d hell she dies.
lonliness always crept in
living was always nuffin bt just a sin
d common thing which I m gonna face
is I came alone,
I'l go alone
I came 2 won bt didnt knew tat will hve 2 quit d race
I m tired of loosing,
tired of giving a faking smile, tired of LIVING
now I need REST,
n dying seems d BEST.

Ĝĭvе ме βαсĸ....................

Give me back those moments,
which i had spent wid u.
give me back those promises,
which said"i'll nvr leave u"
give me back those nites,
which were spent in ur memories.
give me back those days,
which were spent ,seeing ur ways.
give me back those dawns,
which were spent waiting 4 u in d lawn.
give me back those words,
which went inside mah hrt lyk a sword.
give back mah smile,
which used 2 come even if u were far a mile.
give me back all tat love,
which was as innocent as a dove.
give me back all those flowers,
which were d proof of d luv u showered.
give me back all mah dreams,4 u,
which were dere wid me wen i missed u.
BT sweet hrt plz dont give me back mah hrt which i gave u,
coz i kno it only belongs 2 u n only u.............................

Олсз аĝάίή....................

Once again make me melt in ur arms,
let me again feel tat warmth.
Once again let me get lost in ur eyes,
let me again forget all d truths n lies.
Once again hold mah hands firmly,
let me again rise calmly.
Once again play wid mah hairs,
let me again realize ur dares.
Once again touch mah eyes lashes,
let me again burn n turn in2 ashes.
Once again come close 2 me,
let me again sink in2 d sea.
Once again make me urs,
let me brk all d rules n all d laws.
BUT dont make me remind tat now ure nt mine,
DERZ ONLY DARKENESS N NO SUNSHINE......................

∂ееρ їпѕї∂є....................

I said i m happy,
bt deep inside i m crying.
I said i m nt thinking of u,
bt deep inside i was talking 2 u.
I said i m nt missing u,
bt deep inside i knew u'r unforgettable.
I said i tat i wasn't hurt,
bt deep inside i was crushed in2 pieces.
I said tat ma life is goining smoothly ,
bt deep inside i was sinking in2 a sea of pain.
I said i was alive,
bt deep inside i was without life.
I said u mean nthing 2 me,
bt deep inside u were ma world.
I said i didn't care 4 u,
bt deep inside i m still waiting 4 u.
I tat i hate u,
bt deep inside no1 knows how much "I LUV U"

ѕїлĝℓеѕ●●●●●●●●

derz nothing called luv in dis world,
it's just an infauation in which ur hrt is being hurled.
it's better nt u give ur hrt,
b single n b smart.

rember luv is just a silly game
any1 can kick ur hrt n can win d fame .
earlier they say evrythign is fair in luv n war,
bt later there is no love n only war.

love is a contagious disease
which has only cure,
tat is 2 b single n b secure.
love is only found in ur imagination,
coz it's a puzzle without a solution.

they say luv can change some1,
bt i say it can turn no1 in2 no1.
it only gives u pain,
n all ur sacrifcies r in vain.

falling in luv like loosing ur identity,
killing urself by drowing in2 a dead sea.
So, take my advice,
b single,
n ready 2 MINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

щнў тĥĕ Ĥėĉќ ???

Why d heck u fell in luv wid me,
neither i was an angel nor a fairy.
why d heck u treated me as a queen,
when u had 2 break up wid me.

why d heck u promised 2 stay wid me 4ever,
when u had 2 say tat it was all over.
why d heck u said u miss me,
when u had 2 forget me 4 ever.

why d heck u touched me,
n made me complete,
when u had say tat it's nothing except a guilt.

why d heck u never let me cry,
when u had 2 b a tear in ma eye.
why d heck u said tat u gonna luv me till eternity,
when u had 2 say tat u wanna b free.


why d heck u said tat i m ur soul ,
when u had 2 turn ma hrt in2 a coal.
why d heck u siad tat i m ur desire,
when u had 2 set me on a fire.

why d heck it happened bwt me n u,
n i donn know why, why d heck I STILL LUV U......................